This thing we do...
This separation which we perceive...
This experience of life or lunacy which we create and which has no existence without our permission...
Or, closer to Truth - without our choice it could not be ...
Why choose it at all?
Why have to choose it?
We have to choose it if we wish to continue to forget who we are ...
And so we keep choosing the illusion as reality
Until it gets so loud - the illusion, that is - that we can’t stand the noise and so scream to ourselves:
“Turn that blasted thing OFF!!”
And then the intellect is quiet for a moment.
So we have a glimpse of Reality and It is so quiet, so infinitely No Thing, so peaceful, so full of Peace...
And we remember for a flash Who/What we are.
And that is why we have to choose it: Separation.
So we can finally consciously see who/what we aren’t,
so that we can begin to consciously see Who/What we ARE.
Our perfection is our only stumbling block.
For we are perfect with or without our self’s permission, or awareness.
We are all Masters in our own universe.
We are either conscious of this Mastery or not, and this is the essential difference.
So it behooves us to become conscious of our Mastery so we can consciously choose the direction of the play instead of endlessly unconsciously scripting it and acting it out.
It isn’t a requirement to become conscious. There is free will.
But then ... there is Destiny.
It is simply a matter of being Home vibrantly free or
coming home in the waking sleep.
What is it like, waking up?
Sometimes I have dreamed, and realized I was dreaming, and wanted to wake up,
And yet all my screams were silent, and all my attempts were futile as I wrestled with all my being to wake myself up from this falseness and re-align with my consciousness and body and then, suddenly
I would find myself back in this reality,
confused but present.
And what had I been wrestling with anyway?
For from here, it looked like nothing,
An invisible kind of membrane from which I had to de-enmesh myself,
Like exhaustively wrestling with the angel and then to see there is no one there ...
Like Bert and Ernie in It’s a Wonderful Life wrestling with Clarence in the snow in the dark.
That’s what it’s like sometimes.
And sometimes, it’s like noticing the moth on the window.
~ Laura Basha, response paper, July, 1994